I don’t write much anymore, mostly because I don’t know where we are in this thing. It’s been 5 years since I had surgery and was kindly kicked out of the fertility games. It was a relief, to be real. … Continue reading
Author Archives: mandeej
Lately, it’s been all about reflection and finding a peaceful spot in the chaos. Sometimes I can’t stop the loop in my mind that seems stronger than the truth in my heart. I know that love is stronger than doubt, but it’s hard.
It is so hard.
Hard to celebrate when pieces of me are missing.
Hard to be thankful even when I know better.
Hard to smile when I just want to hide.
Hard to wave as the kindergarten girls run to the bus, while I’m left with Hope’s shadow.
Hard to believe the finality of barrenness without getting caught in the undertow.
Hard to push all of my faith into my heart when it feels like it’s getting smaller.
But it isn’t too hard.
It isn’t hard enough to make me quit being absolutely in love with the universe.
I don’t know why Hope didn’t get to stay.
I don’t know why I’m lucky enough to love your kids but not my own.
I know it’s bigger than me.
I know it’s worth it.
I know love will win.
Sharing Our Story
Sometimes is it just easier to keep life neat and tidy, to put everything in its own little box, & tuck away things when you don’t want to see them or share them. This week I was Brave & I … Continue reading
Let’s Fight Slavery this Dressember!
Everyone, EVERY ONE, should be free! It’s so easy to think that the world is truly free, as we are free, but that just isn’t true. It’s heartbreaking, but not hopeless. My amazing friend Lauren, who is such a beautiful … Continue reading
New in the SBJ Shop!
I’ve been having so much fun making these chic bohemium crochet wraps. They are funky & colorful. I love wearing them wrapped multiple times as a bracelet or a few times as a necklace. Each is a one of a … Continue reading
We had a lovely morning at the Longlake craft show. It was great to meet so many wonderful people and share our story!
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Now we are heading to see Goblet of Fire on IMAX. Ϟ 9¾ ⚯͛ △⃒⃘ David Tennant is dreamy, even when he’s a bad guy!
What an amazing day!
I Heart You!
I’ve fallen I love with making these inheart pendants! Working with clay, metal, ink, paint, and resin to create something real from an idea in my head is such an amazing thing! I’ve also been working with chandelier glass and … Continue reading
Creating is Happiness
I’ve been busy creating new jewelry for the Seeking Baby J shop. Making jewelry is creative outlet and I’m so excited to be able to share it with you. We’re working on taking pics and getting all of the new … Continue reading
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